I did have a good Valentine's Day!!!    Jonathan and I just hung out.. went to a used bookstore..went to dinner with his family... and he gave me a rose!!! <3 No one has ever given me a rose before, (besides my parents)...    It was a good day!!

<3 Nae

i went upstairs to ask my dad if i could change the TV chanel... (because he wasnt really watching it anyways...)

he asked why, then i walked away plugging my nose saying 'never mind'

he asked what was the matter, was it his breath?!  yaahhh right, he shoulda known he farted..nasty, anyways...

so then he yelled "F*CK YOU!!" at me and then threw something, and i heard something break, so i told my mom..

she told me it was probably my fault anyways, and that i am not 'ms innocent' and to just go downstairs and leave them alone

so i just came downstairs

maybe what i did was disrespectful..but i mean...can it not be taken as a joke!?!?!?!  i would take it as one if someone did it to me, and i am sure most people would!!!   at any rate, he waaayyyy overeacted!!!!!!!

I HATE THISSS!!!

i cant wait to meet my real mom.. my parents have taken care of me really well, given me all ive ever needed or wanted... but that is not what counts.  what counts is our relationship.  and my relationship with both of them is pathetic.  i apreciate all that they do for me, but i would give alot of that away to have parents that i am good friends with..like jonathan... his family is so awesome, they all get along for the most part, and enjoy eachother's company..and they are all fun to be around.  i wish i had that. 

i know problems don't go away when you get away from home, but i know i will have sooo many less, or at least none like this.  i am so sick of him always getting mad..soo easily.  and he always yells at my mom and sister..that is why i just avoid him as much as i can.   just when i begin to wish we could have been friends while i was growing up, he does something that makes me remember why i never want to be.  he always travels anyways, so i would be fine if i never saw him.  i am glad he travels so much too. 

so yeah, on that note, a Happy Valentine's Day to everyone....

     I am out of Trimont now.  I am glad to not be there anymore because it was hard being the only senior.  The juniors were not so great, especially Matt.  He always hated me, making it obvious all the time, and I am not sure why.  I miss being busy, but not crying every single day because of Matt!! 

     I am trying to get a job, because three pathetic community college classes are not enough to fill my life up.  I feel like a bum now, and i cannot stand it!!!  It is driving me crazy, and it has not even been a month of this!  And we will get out the begining of May, and I am unsure of what I am going to do untill I leave for camp in mid June.  I want a job so badly.  When it gets warmer out, I will atleast be going for jogs outdoors some. 

     This time, last year, there was so much to look forward to!!  Now there is nothing deffinate, except camp, which is more than forever away.  I wish I could fill my schedule with a camp in May, or..SOMETHING!  Anyways...that is my life.. Maybe I am looking forward to college.  Last year, I was horrified at the idea of leaving home and all of my friends, now I am ready to get out of this slum!!!!!!!!!! 

~ R a n a e     ¿

so i am in Fort Myers!!!  it has been great!!  on friday, we were going to stop the night then continue the next morning, but instead, we drove straight through and got here around 11!!  long drive....!! on saturday we went to the miromar outlet mall because it wasnt pretty outside.  then we went to jason's deli..then we went to bell tower and target and some other random places..

Yesterday for church, Anna, Jill, and I went to a Spanish church!!  the church members were realllly touched that we went!!:)..its not as random as it sounds though..we know the pastor  and his family. i am glad we went!!! then we went to Fort Myers Beach..we ate on the beach..and we walked around for a while..fun fun ! when we got back we went to the gym for a while and i worked my abbs mainly haha!

Today we went down to the pool, then we went to target to get me a new bathing suit.  thennn we went to an apt..then Sanibel Island<3!  then dinner..then we road this little train thingy at Lakes Park..and we saw Santa! woohoo!! yahhhhh this is sloppily written..lo siento ..untill next time!!

<3 Nae

I

wanna

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FORTMYERS!!!!  For Christmas break with jill & anna!!!!!